Running in Circles

By Michelle Welch

“In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.”  
Proverbs 3:6 (NIV)

There are days when I can hear my grandmother telling me that if I didn’t have my head connected to my body, I would lose it. You would think that after fifty-plus years, I would have the ability to keep my wits about me. I am, and always have been, a bit of a scatterbrain. I have notes to remind me of where my notes are. This morning I was trying to clean the house a little bit. I know. Shocking! But that being said, I was making an effort anyway. This is how my cleaning went:

20130721_02Go to kitchen. Turn on coffee maker. Go to laundry room where pantry is and find new coffee I bought. Notice that hermit crabs need water. Get container and head back into kitchen where I find the sink full of dirty dishes. Set container aside and unload and reload dish washer. Spill dish powder all over floor so go to laundry room for rag. Notice load of laundry was never switched over. Put clothes in dryer. Place the dirty tablecloth into the washer and decide I can put in some towels. Go to bathrooms to gather towels. In bathroom find the toilet paper rolls are empty so have to hunt down more paper. In the cabinet, I notice that the sheets are messed up so I organize the sheets again. Take dirty clothes from bathroom floor to youngest daughter’s room and see that she has left a glass on her nightstand. Pick it up and head to kitchen where I notice that I spilled washing powder and never cleaned it up. Also notice that I never took the hermit crabs their water. Sigh. And so my morning begins.

I remember that I need to go to the bank and the post office. I jump in the car to get that done before youngest daughter has to go to school. My car keys aren’t in my purse. Go back in house and make youngest daughter help me find keys. Find them under the bag of yard sale stuff on the couch. Wow. Silly me. How would I not know to look there first? Drive to bank, realizing that I didn’t have my coffee yet. Get to bank and find they are closed because it’s a holiday. Double sigh. Back to house where I notice I didn’t start the dishwasher, the dryer, or the washer. I am off to such a good start. And the cleaning has long been forgotten.

20130721_01aI sat down with my coffee (thanking my faithful Keurig machine) and pull out my devotion book. Pull up the computer. Well, I might as well check the banking, the credit card, my email, and of course, Facebook. Two hours later, I haven’t even started my devotion. I feel like such a failure. The day is more than halfway over, and I have completed almost nothing.

How do I let myself get into these messes? I try so hard to be organized. I once had a personal assistant. Those were the days. If things went wrong, it was her fault. But nothing ever went wrong. I am quite sure she thought I was a complete lunatic sometimes. My theory on things is that if I ignore it long enough, it will go away. That theory never works, but I keep giving it the old college try.

20130721_03aWhat I am struggling to comprehend is that if I don’t start my day by acknowledging God’s Hand in this, my days will continue to be filled with chaos. If I give Him the first moments of the day, He gives me the ability to get things done. Obviously I still get up and start my day by making my own choices. And obviously I usually get nothing accomplished. I have also come to see that if I decide what these blogs are going to be about, He makes sure I never have time to write them. Let me assure you that I argued quite a bit about that particular item. My tantrum was a beautiful thing to behold. After my time out, I realized that I am not in charge. Not now. Not ever. This blog is His, my life is His, my children are His, my choices are His, my marriage is His and so on and so forth.

Inch by inch, I am making progress. He is patient and loving. Plus I am quite sure He uses me as an example to the angels of a worst case scenario! At least they laugh in heaven. Because I hear it loud and clear every time I try to take control.

Dearest Father God, Thank You for never giving up on me. Thank You for loving me, showering me with Your grace and mercy every day. I pray for wisdom in doing Your work. I pray that I might not let one day start without coming to you first. I pray that I might see those in need and not walk past one person in need. I pray for better choices in my everyday life, that I will run everything past you first and that I will stop trying to run things! In the Name of Christ Jesus I pray, Amen.

Copyright © 2013, Michelle Welch, all rights reserved, Breath of Life Women’s Ministries. Photography by Michelle Welch, all rights reserved.
Scripture taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc. All rights reserved worldwide. Used by permission.

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